The dancer

Light's flashed on and off across the stage in the dark theater. The intensity of the music was like the waves of an ocean in a storm. And there was the dancer. She looked frightened by the dramatic lights. They blinded her but she kept on dancing. She didn't have a choice, she couldn't stop. The music moved her. The lyrics of the song had been lost long ago and the song had become violent. The dancer threw her body as the music demanded. Sweat dripped from her face and her breathing was hard. The choreography was challenging. It was a modern dance. The dancers movement was to look as if someone was pushing her, however, it was the music that was pushing her all over the empty stage. She was fatigued, confused, and scared.
This is my life right now.

I am so lost right now. I can't find God and I'm so stressed out about my schedule and fitting everything into it. After camp, the more I fell behind in homework the more I fell behind with my relationship with Christ. I've gotten so behind in both and I'm having so much trouble trying to fix it. I keep telling God to fix it for me and then I go and try to do it myself. I know God is still there and He's waiting for me but I have no idea where to look for Him. I'm so thank full for the song "Everything" by Lifehouse. It reminds me that God never lets go of me. He will stand there hanging on to me forever and never let go no matter what the situation. I'm going to keep calling His name and searching until I find Him and I'm not going to rest until I do. I'm reading my Bible more each day but I need to work more on prayer. So that's my life right now, not the best of times but with God I'll make it through. If you've read my "About Me" section, the song is getting rough, the lyrics are lost, and the dance has increased it's pace and is throwing me around. It'll get better though, I know it. I have a song that describes all of this stress, however it's a bit more extreme but the chorus describes it well. Thanks to Jaron for introducing it to me. It's helped me a lot. You might've heard it before, it's called "I Know" by Seventh Day Slumber. The lyrics go:

Wonder what can be so bad That it makes you want to die I wonder what could be so tragic Makes you want to take your life You have your Savior on the cross While you sit on the throne Put yourself up on that cross Put your Savior on the throne And I know it's hard to take what's happening And I know life is tough sometimes And I know it seems like there's no hope for you And I know your life is worth more than you can see It's hard to see beyond your pain When you feel so dead inside It's hard to see what you've been given It's hard to find the hope in life And I know it's hard to take what's happening And I know life is tough sometimes And I know it seems like there's no hope for you And I know your life is worth more than you can see And I say look at Jesus' hands Those scars are there for you You know He understands What you're going through