Stuff about me. In case you care, which I highly doubt.

So on Facebook I was tagged in a note a friend of mine wrote. In being tagged, I was supposed to write 18 random facts/things about myself. I just thought I'd post it on here.

1)I seem random but it's not. I go through it all in my head. If I'm in the middle of talking and I say something completly out of context, I've already had a conversation in my head leading to it.

2)I love battle scars but not on my face.

3)My wall is covered in pics of my friends, but I'm thinking about changing it to Bible verses.

4)Narnia is real. Read The Magicians Nephew, it all makes sense.

5)In between the ages of 1 and 4, I insisted on dressing myself. I always wore a dress. All my outfits matched perfectly^_^

6)I look at things in the strangest way. Well that's what everyone tells me, it all seems normal to me.

7)My favorite drinks are Juice Squeeze(Passion Fruit and Mango), Passion Fruit Italian Sodas, any mocha, Frappachinos(mocha of course), and chocolate milk.

8)I'm lactose intolerant.(^_^couldn't resist the irony)

9)Ever since recently the thought or sight of needles makes me light headed.

10)I have almost impossible standards for myself.

11)I used to cry when we missed church. It still bugs me a lot and sometimes I do cry but I've learned to deal with it.

12)Modern is my most favorite dance class ever.

13)I love being barefoot. Leads to trouble but I don't care.

14)There is no feeling like when all the hard work pays off. Thats what happens on stage^_^

15)I don't like fighting, argueing, or any kind of anger.

16)Music is my shell. Secular music makes me feel like I'm pushing God out of my shell though.

17)I feel closest to God when I dance.

18)I like hard work. It's molds a person. A lot of sweat and tears have made me who I am today. I thank God for those sweat and tears.

Let God be the choreographer

I'm feeling great! I got back on track with God, Narnia is this week(aaah!), and school ends this week. It's all good so far!

I wanted to share an experience I've had within the past couple days...

A few day ago I was sitting by the computer, looking at some mail that came in. One of them was a letter from a missionary in South America, giving us an update of whats been going on. I only read the first paragraph because the rest was too long. She talked about how something she continued to learn each day is when she asked God to guide her feet, He did. A lot of times it was in ways she didn't like but she still did it. I got to thinking about God guiding our feet and how that correlated with me as a dancer. It made sense to me, since I look at my actions as a dance, I figured God should guide me; thus creating the perfect dance. During a combination at ballet class the next day, I thought I'd try it. It was an amazing experience. My placement felt the best I've ever done and my teacher complimented me. Later that night, I told God to really guide my feet and I would do what He told me to do. The next day I got to know a kid at my school a little better. We chatted about God a little and I realized that he was in need of God's love. It dawned on me (with some help from a friend) that God had guided my feet to this kid. I was there to show him God's love. We have a pretty sweet relationship now. It's been amazing from the beginning, though I was scared at first, God has helped me past that and is now helping me reach one of His children. As I said, it is scary but I urge you to try it. Just ask God to guide your feet and then go with it.

The dancer

Light's flashed on and off across the stage in the dark theater. The intensity of the music was like the waves of an ocean in a storm. And there was the dancer. She looked frightened by the dramatic lights. They blinded her but she kept on dancing. She didn't have a choice, she couldn't stop. The music moved her. The lyrics of the song had been lost long ago and the song had become violent. The dancer threw her body as the music demanded. Sweat dripped from her face and her breathing was hard. The choreography was challenging. It was a modern dance. The dancers movement was to look as if someone was pushing her, however, it was the music that was pushing her all over the empty stage. She was fatigued, confused, and scared.
This is my life right now.

I am so lost right now. I can't find God and I'm so stressed out about my schedule and fitting everything into it. After camp, the more I fell behind in homework the more I fell behind with my relationship with Christ. I've gotten so behind in both and I'm having so much trouble trying to fix it. I keep telling God to fix it for me and then I go and try to do it myself. I know God is still there and He's waiting for me but I have no idea where to look for Him. I'm so thank full for the song "Everything" by Lifehouse. It reminds me that God never lets go of me. He will stand there hanging on to me forever and never let go no matter what the situation. I'm going to keep calling His name and searching until I find Him and I'm not going to rest until I do. I'm reading my Bible more each day but I need to work more on prayer. So that's my life right now, not the best of times but with God I'll make it through. If you've read my "About Me" section, the song is getting rough, the lyrics are lost, and the dance has increased it's pace and is throwing me around. It'll get better though, I know it. I have a song that describes all of this stress, however it's a bit more extreme but the chorus describes it well. Thanks to Jaron for introducing it to me. It's helped me a lot. You might've heard it before, it's called "I Know" by Seventh Day Slumber. The lyrics go:

Wonder what can be so bad That it makes you want to die I wonder what could be so tragic Makes you want to take your life You have your Savior on the cross While you sit on the throne Put yourself up on that cross Put your Savior on the throne And I know it's hard to take what's happening And I know life is tough sometimes And I know it seems like there's no hope for you And I know your life is worth more than you can see It's hard to see beyond your pain When you feel so dead inside It's hard to see what you've been given It's hard to find the hope in life And I know it's hard to take what's happening And I know life is tough sometimes And I know it seems like there's no hope for you And I know your life is worth more than you can see And I say look at Jesus' hands Those scars are there for you You know He understands What you're going through

Playing "Peter" was an awesome experience that I will never forget.

If you are reading this, it's probably cause you asked me if I missed being Peter, in Adventures in Narnia, or you're just weird. I sent you all here to answer this popular question. The answer is yes, I do dearly, miss being Peter. I really loved that part, so much so that it has been my favorite. It's hard to describe what it was like but just being on that stage with a God given sense of pride and fearlessness was truely humbling. Dancing "Meeting Aslan" really made me feel like I was meeting God. It was amazing and frightfull. I'm very thankfull for the oppurtunity to dance such a magnificant role and if I had the chance I would do it again. Please don't think that I don't like my role as Spirit of Christmas, this year. I love that one too and though I may not like it as much as Peter, I'm looking forward to dancing it to the best of my ability. I hope that if you are not in the show, then I will still see you there.

It's like a journal.

I needed a place to lay all my thoughts. Keeping them to myself just won't work. I would write them down with pen and paper but I would simply lose the paper, whether in book form or not. A friend of mine/role model has a blog and thus gave me the idea of creating one. I doubt anyone will read it but thats ok. So here it is world! Presenting the very first Lyrics from Kerry!